Devon Hunter

I will admit this freely: I am commitment-phobic. I’ve parted ways with many a hot buddy (did I just out myself as a total slut?), because of the pressure (or perceived pressure) to consider something more than physical romps. I don’t want it. At all. NO! Just the notion that someone wants anything from me is enough to make the elevator gown down to the basement.

I wasn’t always like that. I gave until it hurt. I did that far too many times. Finally, my little faerie wings got tattered to the point where I couldn’t flitter away anymore. That’s not to say that I’m jaded or bitter, because I’m still open to being inspired – I just don’t walk around looking for it. If lightning strikes, fine; however, I’ve learned to dodge the rain drops pretty efficiently.

Anyway, this issue of dating isn’t the focus of my story (I think). However, it does affect something else in my little world: I want to get tattoos, but I’m terrified they’ll be permanent mistakes. I like tattoos that are well-done. I think they can be extremely flattering, and that they reveal a layer of the person wearing them. But I’m so fussy about design and execution that I’ve never been able to bring myself to get any. I’m concerned that I’d find any little straying minute mistake and never be able to get past it. We are talking about tattoos, and not guys… right?

Despite these fears I’m looking at several images to gain inspiration for original designs. I know generally what I want, but I have to consider where to place them. I’m also not going to get anything done until I find an artist I trust. Before I take the plunge there are some rules that have to be established before this long term relationship can be possible.

I feel very strongly that tattoos should be original designs with strong personal significance. With that in mind I have to consider very carefully how to express the most fundamental parts of my personality, which might evolve but won’t change completely. I want something that will illustrate a basic, yet permanent philosophy. Tastes change, but wisdom grows deeper.

What is designed is important, but its size and placement matter too. I’d really like a design that fits into its space well. Perhaps it wraps around a contour or causes the eye to make a connection to something else on me? I don’t know how to explain this properly, but I know I do not want an image etched onto me like a badly placed price tag or something. The design needs to fit into its niche, to enhance the place where it sits, and to meld itself in such a way that it indisputably belongs wherever it is.

I want my tattoos to be beautiful. That doesn’t have to mean overly complex. There is beauty in simplicity as well. I think a small tattoo with pristine lines, expert filling, and excellent clarity is far more desirable than murky, busy, and/or sloppy tattoos of any size. I’m scared the tattooing will hurt, and that I’ll jump around and cause mistakes. I’m also terrified of being the victim of the artist’s random sneeze!

Oh my God! I know someone with a misspelled tattoo. I think I would have a nervous breakdown if that were to happen to me. He tried to explain that “Moter” is Old German for mother, but that’s not true. I think I’d go to jail if I got branded with a typo.

UGH! So many potential pitfalls… What if I get tired of my tattoo? What if I pick the wrong one? How difficult would it be to get rid of him? Wait… I think I’m confusing the issue already (in fact, I’m not sure which issue I’ve been talking about throughout this entire posting).