Devon Hunter

I haven’t been blogging much for a few months. I know that. And there’s  no reason, except that I just haven’t wanted to. Something happened a couple months ago, and I felt that I was tired of sharing. I think it was around the time of the Grabby’s. But, be that as it may, this weekend in Chicago has been very up and down, but it has ended on a very, very positive note. That is what I want to share.

To say that flakes and no-shows are discouraging/infuriating is an understatement; however, I did get to spend time with my friend J.P. Barnaby, I experienced the ENO platter at the Intercontinental Hotel, and I met Meghann. Last night was one of those nights where I felt like nothing I did was to any avail – it just wasn’t going to work out with this appointment, no matter how much I tried to be accommodating. That on top of my entire itinerary falling apart made for some frustration and self-doubt that I had to work against internalizing. I succeeded for the most part, and it’s because of the reminders that flashed up from time to time that everything is temporary. August, 2011 will shortly be in the books, and September will be so much better.

At any rate, when I finally gave up on this client it was nearly midnight. I was STARVING. We were supposed to meet at 11, he moved it to 9, then back to 11, then was an hour late, then at 11:45 said he wasn’t coming at all. I’d gotten ready at 8 pm, so four hours later I was bored, hungry, and irritated… and just about everything was closed. I was wandering around, trying to find some place that still served food, and then I saw it: TGI Friday. Oh, fuck my life… Really?? This is all there is?

Well, I’m glad I went in. TGI Friday likes to sell itself as being always in the festive Friday spirit. And, for me last night, it turned out to be exactly the encounter I needed. Meghann came over, and despite the late hour, was very kind and energetic. When she asked what I wanted to drink, I said, “Girl, it’s been a tough day.”

“Oh! Well… here is the drink list.” LOL Awesome. I selected a red wine, and the Michael Jackson song “I Wanna Be Where You Are” came on. Meghann saw how much I perked up to that. She went over to the juke box and said she had a surprise for me. I managed to find something healthy on the menu, and as I was jammin’ to Lady Gaga, Nirvana, and some other hits she peaked around the corner and said, “These next two are for you.”

OMG!!!

She set me up with “Don’t Stop Til You Get Enough” and “Smooth Criminal.” No. She. Didn’t. YES SHE DID! LOL That was it. I was done. She came over and we had a nice time singing and laughing to the jamz. I showed her my mad skills, all while eating the broccoli that my superhero powers had transformed into chocolate (transubstantiation is just another of my mutant abilities), and we had a GOOD TIME. Just like Friday is supposed to be. And she did this specifically because she knew I needed it. That is so amazing to me.

So, if you are ever in Chicago, you simply must go to the TGI Friday in Magnificent Mile. Ask for Meghann. She is a beautiful person, and she will put some Friday in your life. Her willingness to play with me completely eradicated all that frustration and self-doubt. September will be better. Today is better. Last night was better. Thank you, Meghann!

Today is my birthday!!! I love my birthday… just love it! I’m sorry I’ve not been blogging, but it’s an organic process, and sometimes there is a great deal to say and other times not. I know how I will be picking up with Part 6 of 13, and I will do that soon. Right now I’m nursing a neck injury, and may need to spend the next few days resting. At any rate, it took 35 years, but I finally turned 24 years old today. In honor of plays on the word twenty-four (and as an excuse to throw Janet Jackson on my blog), here’s the video “Twenty ForePlay:”

I just experienced something that was intended to make me feel deeply ashamed of my life and my choices. To make me feel afraid. And just as I was about to start to sink into the chasm that was dug for me, I realized again something that I have defined for myself since October 12, 2006: I create my own reality, I am powerful, and I don’t tolerate abuse any more.

I do not regret my life. I am a kind person, and everything I have chosen to do has been within a greater context that no one but me understands completely (and even I probably can’t claim 100% insight). I have made a beautiful home for myself, I love what I do, I am content, and my family and friends love me. I am happy (the happiest I have ever been to date); I own completely everything I have chosen, learned, and accomplished; and I am not going to allow anyone else to define my success.

That is all. I just needed to put this in my diary. You happened to be privy to it (because my diary is laid open on the internet), but this was for me. If it helps you in any way, I am glad.

Good night.

Hey there – just as I started blogging again I had to stop: My wallet was lost this past weekend, and I’ve been running around doing all the necessary tasks/chores to freeze/reorder cards and replace my driver’s license. No fraudulent activity reported, so that is a big relief. I’ve contended with enough of that type of crap, I would like to think. I am very happy that it has been as smooth of a process as it has been, and I’m grateful there’s no mess to fix. On another note: This week is already starting of beautifully (I just bought some wonderful teas from Teavana, I was able to send some financial relief to someone struggling with medical bills, I reconnected with some friends, and my hair was very cute today for the DMV). It really is a beautiful day!!

In a couple days, when I have some head space to think more clearly, I will write part 4 of Establishing a Career in Adult Entertainment. Sorry for the delay – I will get back on track soon. Just need to catch my breath. I’m also playing catch up on a business proposal, so I do apologize for not updating with more frequency. I hope you are all having a good start to your week.

The agency through which I do my video modeling is Fabscout. I have mentioned them in various places throughout my blog, and I like the people there very much. Here is yet another reason why: They are trying to raise $5,000 for the Animal Humane Society. You can see more about this by clicking this link. If you would like to help us at Fabscout meet this goal, please consider giving what you can. I would love it if three readers would match my $250. Will you consider helping TeamDevon help TeamFabscout? Whether you can give money or not, know that your kindnesses in life do matter.