Devon Hunter

I try to be very kind to people when they think they’re in love with me, because I know that it’s easy to fall very deeply into a fantasy. But that’s what it is. I know this. And yet, right now I find that I am caught up in something that cannot be.

I’m lucky in that I know this man, and we have conversed at length. He is absolutely my physical type. He is so sweet, hardworking, and charming. I just want him for myself. I just love him. And yet, today, he chose to stay with a jealous, controlling boyfriend. I got relegated to “dude” status. Yes, that’s a demotion from “stud.”

So, know this: I know exactly what it’s like to get wrapped up in a fantasy. I’m not mad. I was lucky that the object of my affection was such a nice person. I told him today not to text me again for a while. Too many windows in my heart were opened up for the first time in a long time. I have to close them back and shutter them tight again. I’m lucky that I know how.